Sunday, November 23, 2008

Pls help my family pray for dad's operation

Dad, my sister, my aunt, our maid and I will all be flying to Manila this Tuesday for dad's scheduled heart operation at the Philippine Heart Center. We are hoping that there would be a miracle and he won't need a surgery but if there's no miracle then dad will have to undergo a bypass surgery. It's a painful and dangerous surgery and I do ask for all your prayers that it will be successful and with zero complications. We will stay there for at least 3 weeks and I am hoping that we'll arrive in Bacolod with our dad being as healthy as ever.

Since my dad's heart attack our lives are simply not the same. Everything feels much harder now and we can feel the stress and tension in the air. Although we are being positive and trying to take things lightly but every now and then we just can't hide the tension and fear in one another. We have nothing to hold on to except our faith that God will see us through all these. God helped my dad when he had a heart attack where the doctors said they were amazed that dad survived it. They say usually people with that type of heart attack are DOA or dead on arrival but dad survived it and we are happy with that. Every moment we have with him is considered a blessing although every now and then I get so fed up with him because he is sooooo stubborn! Hey, I guess that means I got that part of me from my dad??? LOL!

We love our dad and although I don't have an affectionate family and we don't even know what happens to each other's lives, but in times like this we start being a family again. It's weird really but emotions flow only when something bad happens and the strength of our bond as a family is tested. Glad we pulled it through and I am still hoping that everything will be okay. Please do pray for us. I can't imagine life without our dad... can't imagine what I'd feel when I'd lose a person that I love... But I am being positive although deep inside I am a bit scared for him. He will be facing the hardest battle of his life yet and all we can do is just support him. We can't help fight his battle to survive, all we can do is pray and ask for even more prayers because I know God will provide us what we need and God makes miracles and God is the Ultimate Healer.

Please do pray for my dad. My family will deeply appreciate it.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

What a beautiful day!

Today was a great day. We had a birthday party and by far this is the best birthday party ever! Why? Because I was surprised by my sisters and my hubby! Before my trip to Manila, they already contacted hubby to buy me a birthday cake too and that everything should be kept a secret. So all this time I was thinking they totally neglected me! It was fine by me though but of course when I saw my small but wonderful birthday cake I just can't help but smile. :)

The party was not perfect with some minor problems but everything went smoothly and it was a blast. I had so much fun on our 3 in 1 party and after how many years, I got another cake! LOL! I remember my last cake was a congratulations cake for graduating college! My sister bought me a cute yet childish congratulations cake in shape of a girl that I thought looked like Susie of Susie and Geno LOL! Imagine? I was 20 years old and they gave me that type of cake! LOL! At least this time, my cake is decorated with flower icings. It's simple compared to my niece's and dad's extravagant cakes! Well, this is a grand birthday for them though, dad is 60 and my niece has just turned 1. The three of us stood in front of our guests while they were singing the happy birthday song and each one of us blew our candles. I kept my candles with me as a remembrance. It's a fun fun fun day! Too bad I didn't have any friends to invite so I just invited my hubby's family. My sisters each have their set of friends while I have none. What can I say? All my friends are in far away places and it's such a big BOO! It would've been so much fun if my barkada's in Bacolod though but I can't cry over that, I'm just happy with how our 3-in-1 birthday turned out. It was a success and we're all very happy!

Here's a photo of my cute yet well appreciated birthday cake!




And here's a picture of our 3 cakes!




And here's a picture of me blowing my cake!


Saturday, November 15, 2008

Triple Birthday Celebration on Nov. 17

On November 17, 2008 there will be a children's party held at Lopue's East but it's a combination of Eila's, dad's and my birthday (November 18s and 20). Well, it's pretty much a children's party and dad and I are just included but it's obviously a birthday party for Eila. Hmph! LOL

Actually, they forgot about me. haha! It would be dad's 60th birthday and Eila's 1st birthday and both of them have the same birthday, November 18. They honestly forgot that I used to celebrate my birthday together with my dad 'coz I was born on the 20th. I'm kinda "tampo" that it's now Eila and daddy's birthday and not daddy and my birthday. :( Oh well... and now she's the princess of the house which used to be my position! :( Something tells me Eila's going to be my worst enemy (lol just kidding!)

Anyway, I would just want to share this very nice birthday video of Eila. She won't be receiving any gifts for her birthday but instead, she's asking for donations for a ministry for little kids like her who are not as blest as she is with a loving mom and dad. Eila is a spoiled baby and this is a great way of slowly teaching her the power of giving and helping those who are in need.

Enjoy watching the video!

Friday, November 14, 2008

My regular companion's back- Paranoia

It's been two days since I got home and now, I am back to my old self. Well, at least I got a breather... for 6 days in total I had nothing to worry about and I just enjoyed my life not thinking about how to earn money and what the future holds for me. Now, I want to shout. I think I'm going crazy! I am so paranoid that I'm getting choked up by my own thoughts. I know I'm doing okay but this is just not enough. I need more, not 'coz I'm greedy (goodness!) but 'coz I feel so overwhelmed with what I need to do and with my responsibilities and future obligations. I'm going nuts!

Will I always be like this? Is there no cure for this? I just want to enjoy life the way normal people do. I envy those who are living in poverty and yet they are enjoying their lives and not worried about what lies ahead. How come I am not like that? Why can't I just be like that?

I am suffocating here! I need some air... lots of air.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Back to my world again

Just got back from my 5-day vacation to Manila-Baguio. It was fun especially because it's filled with lots of bloopers and stories that will be told a thousand times and will never ever get boring. LOL!

I reserved a transient house in Baguio for us to stay in, thinking that the place was decent 'coz the photos seemed fine. When we saw the place, we were all stunned and disappointed. It was in a slummy area of Baguio and what we saw in the pictures was the same but, we never thought it would be "that" small. LOL! And it stinks and there were cockroaches. Well, of course we decided to ditch the place and found a new and much better place to stay in. We can't help but laugh at our experience and Alain's mom said we should never trust what we find from the internet and she cited this certain situation heehee! I won't tell what transient house that was 'coz the person in charge was really nice to us so I'll spare them the shame.

I met with Kym last Friday at Burger Avenue and we had fun. It's been around 1 1/2 years since I last saw her so this was a great reunion with her. She even gave me 2 bags of barako coffee from Figaro. Thanks sooo much Kym! :) I soooo appreciate it as in! Actually, she saw how happy I was when she gave the coffee to me. LOL! I was sad that day 'coz misiobe can't make it but then it was okay 'coz I understand her situation. I'm just so happy that she took the time to meet with me on my last day there and although our time together was rather short, but it's such a great bonus on my trip! I missed her a lot and I'm so happy to see her again. Kym and I and Jodie and I had our little talks and saved some memories together. Thanks to both of you for taking the time to spend with me. :)

I wasn't able to meet my friends Shang and Reena though but it's okay. Miss you both too and hope both of you are and will be happy with your lives.


----What did I learn from my short vacation?

I learned that I need to take away my stress in order to feel more alive

I learned that it's great to meet your friends (I wish I have more time and chance to do that though :( )

I now realize that I can't sleep because I always think about work and how to earn more money. Since the first day of my vacation, I was able to sleep soundly. (Yep, I snored a few times LOL! So? I was tired!)

I learned to be moooooore patient especially with "A"! Grr!!!

I realized that I want more vacations! hahaha!

Friday, November 7, 2008

I just had another bad dream

Well, I'd be flying for Manila 5 hours from now and I was awakened by a text from my friend R asking me if I could still attend her wedding. I feel bad 'coz I can't :( Anyway, this post isn't about that but it's about the dream I had prior to her text.

I have a friend J and in my dream, I went to visit her place and it was like a huge dormitory with lots of people and it's just near a huge mall. After my visit with her, I went with Alain to the mall to meet up with my friend R and her boyfriend (just in my dream) named Luis. Luis is a rapper and he suddenly decided to rap about "Wonder Boy" (My oh my! I have the strangest dreams I tell you) and there came a fat guy with a Wonder Boy costume (You know wonder boy? It's that junk food I used to eat when I was a little kid, it's very delicious) Anyway, this wonder boy guy started dancing like a robot and my friend J came and she was wearing ice skates (What?!!). She was so mad and she screamed and yelled at Luis for singing a very ugly song. Luis got mad and tried to fight with J. R and I stopped both of them and I immediately asked R and Luis to go with us and we were about to go to Sta. Mesa Manila (what? that's where I stayed before during my reviewing days LOL) Anyway, while waiting for a Taxi, here is where the bad dream started. While waiting for the taxi, there was a procession of people. The first group was mostly women and they were all cursing everyone and they all looked very angry. They stared at me and cursed me and they all looked so angry. After them, the second group was even worse. They were all staring at me too and they were performing self-mutilation. The other one was standing and there were some men who are just pushing her to the procession and she's standing with her knees stapled to wooden rotating barbaric tool and she was in pain. She looked at me as if I was to be blamed for the pain. It was so weird and it was really scary :( Why were they looking at me like that and why such a negative energy? :( Why why why! :( Now I can't sleep. :(

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

...and nothing changed

Well, I just suffered another horrible night without much sleep. That "mangluluya" just acted out as if she really felt something different and that I can now sleep well at night. Well, she was wrong and I will never ever go to a mangluluya ever again! These faith healers are pathetic! I never believed them and after my first and LAST experience with one, I will never ever believe them.

Update: I tried to sleep around 11 last night but up until 1:30 I was still tossing and turning and I just can't sleep. I still have lots to write today so I can't risk not getting some sleep so I still ended up taking my pill and I was able to sleep from around 2 to 8 yay!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

The oddest and funniest moment of my life

I just went to a "mangluluya" about an hour ago. When I saw this 82 year old woman I was already scared and I asked Aln to just let me go home but he insisted and so I was there, talking to this old lady, and she was telling me that I have a very light pulse and that means I have "nerbyos" which is actually true. LOL! She then started yawning several times and told me that I can't sleep for more than 2 weeks because I was indeed affected by some kind of entity. (what the? Are you f***ing serious?!!) LOL! Well, I am a skeptic. I don't believe in this crap and I was there just thinking to myself that this old lady got to be kidding me! Then she started massaging my back and I was in sooooo much pain. I kept shouting and I almost cried. So darn painful but when I checked how she was massaging me, it was actually very light. So, I think that's pretty ODD and after awhile she massaged the same areas at my back and chest and I couldn't feel anything anymore. Again, very ODD. She said I would be able to sleep now (sure???) and that I should keep the "luya" ginger with me for at least 3 days and that I am not allowed to bathe (what the hell?!!)


I somehow feel like I would rather have sleepless nights than not bathe for 3 f***ing days! This is a very strange experience for me LOL!

Strange though... but I'm actually very sleepy now and it's only 7:20 PM. nyek

Monday, November 3, 2008

I used to love bedtimes but now, I'm sleep-deprived...

Been suffering from Insomnia for more than 2 weeks now and it's really such a drag. My mom-in-law told my hubby that he should take me to a "mangluluya" coz maybe I hurt an elementals and it's going back at me. LOL! Old people have very superstitious answers to everything, don't they? I can't sleep. There's no Hocus-Pocus reason why I can't. I just can't!

I am taking Melatonin-T right now and I'm so thankful for it. I stopped taking it after 3 great sleeping nights because I don't want to be dependent on the sleeping pills but I can't sleep well without it and sadly, I am back to taking it again. It's actually inexpensive, only P19.75 each!

Anyway, in just a few days I'd be heading to Manila again. It's been over a year since I last went there. I was supposed to attend my good friend's wedding but unfortunately, we can't. I don't have a car to drive from Makati to Alabang grr! But since we already bought our tickets and our number 1 reason for flying there has been cancelled, it's a good thing we have a back-up plan- a trip to Baguio. So on November 9, 2008 we'd already be in Baguio. The day before that we'd be going to Tarlac and Pampanga, 2 places I've never been before, so it's going to be fun too!

I am actually quite excited about it. Though Baguio isn't really all that but it's a great place to unwind and just have fun eating strawberries and jams. LOL! And yeah, I can meet with my friend Kym on Friday evening too so I hope that'd be fun as well. ;)