The battle...

There's a fight in me, the good and the bad. Trying to be positive when the world starts to look dark is hard. But, I keep on fighting and trying to be positive. I don't wanna look at the bad things in my life now but I focus on the good things- the people in my life and all the wonderful blessings from God.

It's tough but I am proud of myself. I am doing quite well now. I am now able to handle my emotions a lot better than before. I can control anger a little bit and I can say NO to pain and depression. It is a struggle. At some point in a day I am being dragged back to my old self but all I really need to do to be positive again is to count my blessings. Being loved by a lot of people is enough reason for me to be happy and to stay positive in life. Without these people in my life, the world seemed such a sad place to be but because they always make me feel so loved, any problem don't seem so bad anymore...

I am going through something right now but remarkably, even with all these challenges that I am facing, I somehow feel enlightened. I don't feel so down and it's such a wonderful realization. God is good, He is carrying me and He gave me these people who keeps me sane just by loving me. What more can I ask? How can I not be strong when they are always making me strong? It's true... If you just know how to appreciate the little things in your life, it's really the key to contentment and happiness. Ask yourself the same question- what is it in your life right now that is worth being happy about? Don't think of the big things- think small. Even the little things like opening your eyes in the morning and able to eat, walk, smell, smile, laugh or cry. Count the number of people who loves you and would walk through fire for you and you'll know, you're one blessed person. God is good.