RIP Frosty :''''(

July 15, at around 8 in the morning my dog died.

4 am July 15, I woke up from a crying sound. Frosty was outside the door, crying as she wanted to come in. I woke up and opened the door for my baby Frosty and she went in. She didn't make me sleep anymore, we played and I cuddled her. I made her feel so loved and I liked petting her as she closed her eyes and enjoyed being with me. Frosty was my constant companion. She rarely left my side and I felt like this dog worshiped me and loved me unconditionally. Even when I've been away for a few months, the moment she sees me eye to eye she remembers me and she starts following me around like we've never been apart. I guess that's how unconditional dogs love their masters. She forgave me many times for leaving her months at a time and when we're together again, she pretends like we lost no time.

Past 7 in the morning last July 15, I was still chatting with my sister. I told her I'm going to take a nap as I haven't slept after 4 AM 'coz Frosty woke me up. Just a few minutes later, our helper came in and brought Frosty. She said Frosty was ran over by our car and she can't walk well... might have broken her leg. I looked at Frosty and she looked in pain but she didn't really cry. she moved towards the place where she usually sleeps, just right beside my bed. She laid there as she was in pain. I didn't know what to do, I called up my husband. Told him Frosty's in pain, might have broken her leg. Then, Frosty looked at me and I saw blood rushing out of her mouth. I started crying, shouting in disbelief. As I was talking to my husband I couldn't help myself. I became hysterical. Then, she died... Just about 2 minutes after she was brought in to be with me, she died. I knew she was dead because she started to pee. I cried so hard, I lost my constant companion, my best friend. Husband tried to comfort me, my sister who our helper called up tried to comfort me but I couldn't stop crying. I just lost my dog... I could not believe it, until now I couldn't believe it. Frosty's gone. She's really gone.

After awhile, I had to stop crying because I am putting my baby in danger by being so emotional. I had to put all my pain aside because I cannot afford to jeopardize my baby and have early labor. That time I started feeling pain in my abdomen and I started experiencing cramps. I got nervous, I immediately lied down and rested. I automatically stopped crying though my heart was in so much pain. It was at this moment that I realized it's so damn hard to be pregnant. I couldn't grieve for my baby Frosty. I feel it's so unfair, she deserves my grief but I can't grieve too much. But, I know Frosty understands. I loved her so much and I never failed to make her feel that. I cuddled her every time I can and I made her feel so loved. I know she's happy now together with King Kong who died last year. I lost them both and both deaths were traumatic for me. Still, I'm happy I was able to make their lives wonderful. They were loved and I know they brag about that to other dog souls in heaven.

I've been searching online for proofs or studies about doggy heaven. I know in my heart God welcomed King Kong and Frosty and my previous pets in heaven. They are there and they are all waiting for me to someday join them and pet them and cuddle them all over again.

To my baby Frosty, I loved you so much and I will never ever forget having you as my pet. You comforted me and kept me company when I felt so alone. Goodbye my baby. I love you soooooo much! My heart continues to cry for you. I am just glad your death was quick and you died beside me. I love you.