For months I fought hard to keep myself happy. I know my condition and I know I shouldn't succumb to my inner devils. I fought hard, battling with this evil voice that's telling me to just give up and let everything go. I hate it... just a little push and I start breaking to pieces again. I hate this feeling but I know I should fight it. I shouldn't succumb to it once more.
I'm tired... tired of fighting. I want it to just take me and fly me away, away from the life I know and into a different realm surrounded with horned beasts and dark entities. I'm tired of keeping my glow and yet prolonging my agony. I'm tired, can't you see? I'm just so tired.
Can I just be happy without being selfish? Life is a sacrifice that's burdening me. I can't pretend... can't snap out of it... I wish I could just give in.
Is it too selfish of me to ask?
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